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There were so many things happened in 2012:
Back from San Fransisco,after be a substitute teacher in a couple of elementary schools,I decided to do what I really want to do. I no longer expected a very limited scope of life, a life that simply meets the mainstream social values.

I changed a job as a designer at Culture X Creativity Design company where I felt like a café often visited by modern intellectuals. And coffee, indeed, was one of the products of the company, so I had a large personal working area near the window and a computer dedicated to my own use while drinking free coffee every working day. What’s more valuable was that my boss never saw working-over-time as a must, instead, he believed that it hinders a designer from producing good design.

As the time went by, however, I started to ask myself, is this job where I really want to be? It seemed nice; and undoubtedly, a Visual Communication graduate was supposed to follow the path to be a designer. Maybe I shouldn’t ask myself too many questions? Just hold on and stay stable for a while before making any new decisions?

My boyfriend and I have parted away for almost two years. But I still remembered what he has told me: Be honest to myself, and distinguish what I love from what I like.

One day when I was on my way back from work, I thought about him, and this reminded me to do the “Distinguishment". I liked my designer job; however, I loved to assist my artist teacher Fujui Wang, because I enjoyed being around with everyone who’s around him. They worked hard in order to meet their ideals, and I especially admired the attitude and energy revealed in their working about art. I wondered, would it be possible for me to be a person like that if I do what my passion really lies in?

A new idea came up to my mind with anxiety, nervousness and excitement about the unknown outcome; I then had a long conversation with my boss in one afternoon. My boss said to me, “It is easy for anyone to purely think about challenging the status quo, but there are always much less people to truly act it out. Go for it, you should try it out. You can come back here to resume your job as our designer if you fail. The seat will be reserved and always open for you." And so I did. I went to New Zealand for 15 days with Fujui in a three-city tournament. During the whole journey, I experienced the cold weather, exhaustion, tension, pressure and uncertainty, however, I was feeling satisfied and happy.

I can not expect my family to understand my new dicision that seems so crazy and unpromising now. However, life is short, I really don’t want to regret my own failure of not following my heart when I am old. I want to challenge what people said I can’t accomplish, I want to prove those are actually the dreams they can not fulfill or dare not to try. 2013 Lu Yi

2012這一年發生了好多事情,從SF回來的我決定要做真正自己想做的事,不想再為世俗的框架和社會的期待而活,我找到了設計師的工作,公司裡氣氛和裝潢就像文青咖啡館,因為公司的產品線有咖啡,所以每天都有免費的咖啡可以喝,有屬於個人的靠窗大位子和新電腦,更很難得的是,老闆的理念是不加班,因為加班做不出好設計。持續了一段時間,我問我自己,這份工作是我想要的嗎?好像看起來不錯,畢業於視覺傳達也似乎該找個設計師的工作。或許我不該問自己那麼多問題,先安安穩穩工作一段時間再說。

離開男友快兩年,彼此成長,他教會我的,是誠實面對普通喜歡,和特別喜歡的感覺,有一天工作回家的路上,我想起他,也想起了這個感覺,當我在工作的時候,是普通喜歡;可是在幫忙福瑞老師時,是一種打從心理特別喜歡的感覺,因為我喜歡老師身邊的每個人,他們很努力在走自己的路,我也喜歡他們詮釋藝術的特別和能量,如果真的做自己熱愛的事,會不會也可以跟他們一樣那麼有力量。

我有了新的想法,伴隨著未知、焦慮、緊張和興奮感,和公司老闆長談了整個下午,要說出實話實在實在實在不容易,不過老闆卻對我說,要挑戰別人既定的想法,追求自己熱愛夢想的念頭人人都有,但要開始行動可不是人人都會去做,老闆說:「去試試看,如果失敗了,那再回到公司繼續做設計就好了,挺你,位子會一直幫你保留。」就這樣,之後,我義無反顧跟著福瑞老師去了紐西蘭巡迴表演,15天三個城市,又累又冷,經歷摩擦、壓力和未知,可是卻很爽很高興。我沒辦法期望現在的家人能體諒,這個看似動盪瘋狂的決定,不過人生很短,我真的不想等到40歲的時候,才開始後悔,沒有去順應內心誠實的聲音,挑戰一下別人對我說我做不到,其實是他們做不到的夢想和嘗試。2013 盧藝

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